He is a stranger to me. I supposed why i am so less talking myself. All our chatter were about money, have u had lunch? dinner? , where are you going?  I found it difficult to communicate or rather felt boring. All the answers He gave were a sentance, no more. It felt like being questioned rather than chit-chatting.I am always the one who ask a different kind of questions than the topic i mentioned above. He have a huge knowledge inside his head, He just don’t know how to share. That eventually effected my poor of sharing some of my thought with my friends. Or should i say poor in communication. yeah! that’s my theory though. Dinning table is usually a place where family gather and chat. We only have one chance in a year to be gathered in that situation, reunion dinner. Other days no chance of seeing us together in one table. Bcoz we prefer to sit in front of the TV set to eat and at the same time watch. hehe. He is the only one who would have his every meal on the dinning table. To be a role modal i think, but we prefer at living room….sometimes, if everytime, i cant imagine how many pounds i have gain with a lifestyle like that. haha. I can’t deny that i love travellig with him. Inside the vehicle, i was like a curious child ask ‘what’s this; what’s that’ Silly to think of it that this should be done long years ago when i was a child. It’s actually true that i didn’t get a chance to ask when i was small because i was still a kid, quiet or can say passive kid i was back then or maybe im busy playing with my dolly. hehe. I hardly remember the time we spent together back then. I saw an old photo of me sitting on a swing n He standing behind. Pushing or swinging me. That’s sweet. I wish someday somehow that someone special will swing me. lol(embarrassed)……

I love He

Based on a fictional book about a Robin Hood in Korea, Hong Gildong, this drama is very loosely based off of that book and the time it was set in.

Hong Gil Dong was the illegitimate son of a high ranked minister. A local monk took him under his wing and taught him martial arts. Hong Gil Dong was inspired to fight for the injustice in this society that divided people into nobles and ordinary citizens whereby the former enjoyed all the privileges due solely to their birth.

The heroine, Heo Yi Nok, had just returned to Korea from China with her grandfather. They made their living by putting on shows and selling their special brand of medicine in the marketplace.

Lee Chang Hwi had been told since he was young that he was the rightful heir to the throne which had been usurped by his half brother. He had also returned from his exile in China and was plotting to overthrow the emperor.

The three got entangled in love, hate, loyalty and betrayal and only one side can win.

Have you ever asked yourself what is the meaning of life?

What is the purpose you live? 

What kind of destination/journey may lead/bring you to?

Possible answers: don’t know, not sure, hack care, don’t bother…

Today is the day i get myself shot!!!…..by paint ball hehe. There is a diGi promotion in my college and some events/carnival happened. The promotion is strictly for UCSI students and it end this week…too bad!  

Paintball is a sport game in which players eliminate opponents from play by hitting them with paint filled, breakable, gelatin paintballs usually shot from a carbon dioxide or compressed air powered "paintball marker". (in case anyone don’t know)  Need to teamed up with 3 person, means 3 vs 3… Pei Eng, Hao Ran and me. Before entering the field, we must wear the protective cloth and goggle/mask…Gosh!! so smelly…the most smelly is the goggle…imagine the sweat from previous players…and then you wearing it…Aw yucK!! 1st round, 3 of us with excited feelings went in and ready to shoot…minutes later… i kena headshot!=.= a green paint spot on my left side, luckily i wear mask. I felt sorry for Pei Eng, she kena headshot too but she felt pain, the mask she wore did not cover the upper part of her head, got bruise =.=  From now onwards paintball will be her nightmare sport lol. 1st round we lose although i shot someone on his hand hehe.

Pei Eng and me manage to participate few other games, need 3 tokens per games. To obtain the token, you just have to write down name and id number… as simple as that(limited 2 times only sad). We ask friends to write down their names then the tokens will be given to us hahahaha. Thx to Hao Ran n Johny.Then we can play more and get gifts XD (digi paper clips, handphone chain, CD folder and digi sticker)   

After the 1st round on paintball, i found it fun and try for 2nd round with Mr Hao Ran (Coz Pei Eng dun wanna kena headshot twice XP). I cant imagine 2nd round we loose so badly + embarrassed!!(all opponents did not have one single paint on them +_+" summore i teamed up with boys =.=) Hao Ran kena his neck, thumb, hand… pity him. My leg got numb and tired coz i squat down too much. No pain no gain, so im going for 3rd round, we are the last team coz is already 6pm(started at 11am). Opponents were catholic male chinese, 2girls, 4 boys. Before war, a digi guy willing to share tips on how to shoot your target. I try my luck… hehe i shot my target… officially HEADSHOT!!(kinda remind me of "wanted" n cs XP) while i was finding my next target, im running out of bullets Cis!=.=(simply shoot till 0 bullet left very good=.=) then came Hao Ran no more bullets as well. Now left the girl, in the end she also kena her target ~CHEERS~ we won…finally.By the way, i 4got to say sorry to the person i shot=.= Komenasai! Hope he heard my invisible apologise.  I felt like getting used to this game! Yup love it. ~My shirt got BlooD stain~ XP       

Sometimes… when the thing you said and act were different from what u thought. For example, i like to eat meat, but when ordering economic rice, it ended up choosing all vegetables. STRANGE?? Just like the body takes control of ur brain (is it possible?) or maybe another example … like when you like this guy, but you told ur friend that u dun like em!……….or or u said u dun like spicy food but u enjoy laksa…….confusing huh………………………….

Every time when i’m saying something, people will get confused of what i’m trying to say or express. I find it hard to communicate CLEARLY. I need time to analyze the question in my mind long enough to find the best and understandable answer (sometimes different languages comes in lol). By the time I give my answer, it will become “expired” or so call slow reply/reaction = noob. I scared people throwing questions one at a time, GOSH!! Headache!! Is there any ways to deal with this matter? Eat brains? Yuck!!!… eating internal organs will tend to get uric acid. How come my reaction became so slow? Getting old? Lack of focus, concentration? Or probably I din consume a particular nutrient enough? Fish oil?…………

I have been searching for answers in dealing with right and wrong decision ever since the day I was a kid. People kept telling you that you cant do this, you cant do that; this is right, that is wrong… How we know that they are 100% correct where we must follow their orders by hook or by crook. Who is gonna prove to us that they were correct when giving us orders??…… How to prove that the judges or lawyers or tutors or the people who claim that they know justices better were always right and must us to listen every words they have said? By certificates and pass experiences in their respective field? Therefore we have to node our head??…… As years passed by, I figured out that actually there was no right or wrong in life… yet, no prove or evidence which said that is it right or wrong…only by people’s state of view, by their pass experiences and point of view in solving matters. At the end, when the same problems occurred, they will base on their pass experience to solve these matters. As they know the best solution towards the matters. Own decisions have to be made personally not by others. Listen to own Heart, listen to own sound, find yourself, discovered yourself. It is your own life, not others. Think twice before making any decision. 

15th April

Yesterday my sis brought back two drawf hamsters, so cute. We had raise a hamster called jin jin 金金, unfortunately died of food poisoning T_T sad. Now these cute little fella i will take good care of them like precious >< ( Alan don’t you come and dissect it o !!) hehe jkjk. After captured a picture of them (flash), they scared like hell, when you hold them , they like shivering… omg really frighten them…

This morning i gave them a few gua chi (sunflower seeds). (name them A and B) B was holding a gua chi and biting it, then here comes A snatch B’s gua chi, then A snatch it back from B…never ending. The thing is that a lot of gua chi scatted around them. I thought they didn’t notice, then I took a gua chi and fed A, ‘it’ don’t want, wanna snatch food from B  zzzz.  A so naughty coz B is still a baby, A’s older…… I put ‘it’ cause i don’t know they are males or females, some more the previous owner also don’t know.

Around 9pm , i was sitting in front of the computer then, boom no electricity…… now i clever leh Camus, know how to use the mobile phone light to see through the dark XP. Everyone slept early that night. In the middle of the night, don’t know which fella go and put the fireworks…… maybe they want to get the source of light from the firework?? or some sort of celebration?? hmm. Around midnight, current back again . Don’t know why ar, no current often happen in my neighbourhood……

I’m watching a series called Love at 0′C (爱情零度 C). Few episodes were acted by Wei Lian. He sang 幸福的重量 and 越冬 the sub theme songs. Main theme song is 解冻 by 芮恩. As we all know that Wei Lian won the Singapore’s Superstars few years ago. Some of his songs were touching especially 火柴天堂 and 其实你不懂我的心 . Tears dropping down my cheek when i heard him singing 火柴天堂. I love 我只是想要  but my favourite still 幸福的重量 because of the series gua hehe.  He had a homepage where fans can have a close contact with him and he write blogs too= http://weiliankelvin.com

Actually all of his songs are nice, his voice i can say is the best of the best  一级棒 even judges cant find a single mistakes in 超级星期天hehe.The problem i’m having is that i cant find mp3 of 幸福的重量 neither baidu nor sogou……disappointed

I have 3 siblings but the only one i don’t have is a big brother.

How is it like to own a big brother? The feelings must be very nice.

My idle of a big brother …

1. must know how to protect the family including me .

2.will not play online games (i think will only exist in centuries)…

3.sporting, outgoing, willing to learn, curiosity(like me). In that way, so that he will bring me along anywhere .

4.of course must be a gentleman

5.brave(will not afraid of anything)

It is my desire to own a 哥哥, unfortunately destiny is unchangeable.

We can only accept fate.

I was reading the blogs that i had written so far. Some sound funny, some recalled my memories in those years when i’m still in school life. Some are lyrics which i was fond to it during that period of time. My first blog call "The day i get crazy with water" where it all started during the lower 6 orientation day. To tell you the truth, i deleted a few of my blogs because i thought the capacity of storing my stories are limited. (silly me><)  I read my blog one by one, discovered that my english is getting sucks and blogs getting shorter and shorter ! I got one blog that seems funny - "Presentation day" , i read it then only i notice that it did happened. I discovered that actually i love chinese orchestra-pipa so much within me! I will continue to practise as a hobby only when i’m free…